"To be or not to be-that is the question"-shakespeare

The title of the blog states a quote from a soliloquy in the story Hamlet by Shakespeare. I will not get into the main idea of this soliloquy because I am not contemplating suicide though what I am saying is "To be someone you are not or not to be someone you are", now that is my question.

To be someone you are not or not to be someone you are, that is the question?
Is it because we live a life of constant sin?
Is it because we hide ourselves in the dark

that we must we fight with who we are within
so then what happens to our spark

It dies inside waiting to be free 

longing for that day in which you can be 

not wanting to hide anymore or scurry up a tree

when will it come when you don't have to plea

It begs and begs to be released 

with  only pleasure no remorse and no pain

when will be the day the beast is unleashed 

and thrive over you before it drives you insane

Are you afraid of who you'll become?

or afraid of what others will say

that is exactly why you have gone numb

you have made your bed now lay

To be someone you are not or not to be someone you are, which is the answer?

Laughter

Laughter is simply so amazing, you laugh and even if you are not happy at that moment you do feel joy. The joy of love, pain and right at that single moment you feel like you are somebody else. That is what I feel every time I laugh even when I'm sad. Haven't you ever heard a child's laugh? It's the most beautiful thing to hear, I love hearing a child's laugh and when they cry it just breaks my heart. It's so funny how laughter and crying can alter your inner emotions. I remember when my mom used to get mad at me sometimes I'd laugh because of the faces she would put and she was very angry but when she saw me laugh she couldn't help but laugh or think I was crazy but most of the time laugh and then it changed her mood. How incredible is that? I love laughing and when I'm not in the mood I make sure to remember to think of something funny and sure enough I calm down, which is good because I don't usually stay angry for so long. Laugh Laugh and Laugh some more. That's why there is a saying that says "Live, Love, Laugh" and I truly believe in it because there is nothing else more important than Living life to the fullest, Loving unconditionally and Laughing all the time in life there should be no regrets! 

Next time you listen to a child's laugh, remember that moment how it touched you.

Laugh for no reason at all who cares if you look crazy! Just Laugh.......... Hahahahahaha, HA! 

All good things have to come to an end

It was wonderful while it lasted, I was happy and had never felt it before. 

I don't regret a single thing, I don't regret what I did or didn't do. I was happy and that's what mattered there is no point going back or regretting what could have been or not. A decision was made and eventually I will feel it was the right one even if now it doesn't feel that way. I tried to make it work, I tried to make it better but I must not have been persistent enough or I went at it the wrong way. Why??? Did this happen I don't know but it did and there is no turning back. If only you could tell me that what I want is wrong then things might change but I know now that there is no chance of it happening. The line has been drawn in the sand and it's time to make the jump and if you don't then well forever doesn't exist. I've made that jump a number of times,  I've leaped from the highest mountain not knowing if there will be anything to stop my fall. What's to say you can't do the same? Why must things come to an end? Why must things fall apart? They just do and there is nothing that can change that. I've known for a while that the feeling was no longer there and if it was then I could not see it through the black brick wall. I tried so many times to break down that wall but I guess I'm not strong enough. Sometimes you have to be prepared to take something that difficult down and I wasn't and still I am not, I have my own walls to worry about. The boat is still at the dock if you'd like to get on but it will be departing soon.  "True love is never forgotten nor regretted, only cherished"- Me